Beer and chips (and a lazy Easter Sunday)

April 20, 2025April 20, 2025 fishyfisharcade2 Comments

Although the weather has been nice today, I’ve spent most of it sat on the sofa with our cats, browsing the internet on my phone and reading a photobook (England Observed by John Gay. You can see a selection of his wonderful and evocative photographs here).

My dad visited this morning and we agreed to visit Newark Air Museum this week while I’m on leave – we attempted a visit last autumn, but when we arrived they had had a water outage and were unable to admit visitors!

I also checked in with my son on WhatsApp to see how our daughter-in-law was getting on in the 5k run she was doing as part of the Leeds Running Festival (which she admitted she was doing largely to get the medal that all participants receive 🙂 ).

Now I’m sat here attempting to digest the large Sunday dinner I’ve consumed (featuring a very large leg of lamb). I didn’t receive any chocolate eggs, although I don’t think I could manage any chocolate after the dinner.

I slept better lat night, thankfully. I’m not sure if my mind was just in a bit better state, or if it was a result of my tried-and-tested “eat a banana before bedtime” method of combating anxiety-caused insomnia, but I’ll do the same again tonight. Getting a decent amount of sleep makes a lot of difference to your day.

Yashica Mat 124G & Lomography Color Negative 400. Lab developed. Home scanned and converted with Negative Lab Pro.

Taken on 2 February 2025

35mm · Film photography · Photography

Dusty red car

April 18, 2025 fishyfisharcadeLeave a comment

Of the shots from this roll of film that I uploaded to Flickr, this one receive by far the fewest likes. But I like it.

I like the bold red of the car against the graph-paper wall of the building. The red fire alarm that matches the car’s colour. The parking signs. The plant behind the frosted glass window.

Photographs are a subjective topic, aren’t they?

My anxiety persists. It’s causing difficulty with my sleep (not stopping me from falling asleep, but preventing me from going back to sleep when I wake early) It’s leaving me feeling fatigued and I keep catching myself almost nodding off while watching TV in the middle of the day. I need to find some techniques to keep it at bay but, in honesty, I think the only thing that will remove it is resolution or acceptance of the thing that’s causing it.

Yashica Mat 124G & Lomography Color Negative 400. Lab developed. Home scanned and converted with Negative Lab Pro.

Taken on 2 February 2025

35mm · Film photography · Photography

Reflected factory

April 17, 2025 fishyfisharcade2 Comments

I’ve finished work now for the Easter weekend and the whole of next week, which is nice. Unfortunately, I’m also feeling pretty anxious about some stuff going on in my family. I wish I was better at dealing with anxiety. My wife worries about things too, as does everyone – especially their children’s wellbeing – but is able to avoid the worry consuming her. It’s something I envy.

I tend to be ok through the daytime, but early mornings seem to be worst, where I’ll wake with panicked thoughts that prevent me from getting back to sleep.

It’s perfectly possible that I’m being over-anxious and that I will look back and wonder what I was fussing about, but my brain has a tendency to catastrophise and I really need to find some way of dealing with this.

Sorry for the slightly gloomy post!

Yashica Mat 124G & Lomography Color Negative 400. Lab developed. Home scanned and converted with Negative Lab Pro.

Taken on 2 February 2025